Uncle VIctor

The moon has waned
The worries are mounting.
The room is cleaner
but thoughts are clogged
I see a window from which
dark clouds are looming
the music delves into a dirge
and slowly fades with a buzz
I sink deeper into oblivion
a mirade of scene flashes
the luminance is blinding
stretching into eternity.
shutting out the world
riding on the waves of pleasure
then eternity knocks on ma cell
boasting that itz captured another Valiant
I playback the scenes in time
speechless sobs swallow the words
I bow ma head in reference
and mutter a prayer for your kids
that needs may show them meat
and why's will feed them life
may your soul rest in perfect peace
uncle Victor


















maybe not, he is resting in glory

update thursday

The holiday seasons are here again....not a very gud to emerge but itz better now than never. There are lots of stuff to deal with and there appears to be insufficient time to weather it. Got some change for some deal and a few more are hangin here and there, itz kindda frustrating when ma bills are escalating arithmetically. Wifey is moving into our crib and things are taking shape again...at least I got honey to smile at a bruda after two long days! Gotta get down to the drawing board and figure out a way to make this holiday worthwhile.

My weeks end on thursdays now so I start a looong weekend today. Halleluyah!

Fasting by default every other day, I wish I was home to say a few prayers too. The Good LOrd has been faithful, the prayers of blessings on ma head are still potent, I dont know how much effort it would take to curse.

My mind is clouded witha lotta stuffs, i need to unclog it to be able to take in the heat of this semester. The Lord is on ma side and I am not afraid or dismayed....tommorrow is a bestest day!

...tat monday

Monday was blue......ok....forget it, I was in the mood to rhyme my story but that wont be necessary at the moment. I certified it was a bad day intoto....despite the many attempts to salvage it.

Ma intuition is crisp, I can sense trouble like a few hundred metres away. The fun part is that folks dont yield and they suffer afterwards, dragging me along in their mud as well. Me not being convincing enough to lead them to yielding becomes my downside - like a disability.

First mission was to get wifey a letter to enable her fix some visa problems which was caused by misinformation. Salvaged the first part and was settling into another phase of breakthrough when the break occured in a somewhat larger magnitude. A more than 10km maiden drive on the 'other' side of the road was greatly tainted. Suffice it to mention that I felt like crashing the damn car on a 120km/hr frenzy a number of times due to misunderstandings, frustrations, and inappreciation. I immediately seeked counselling on return.

Maybe itz the trend. I ran into a number of equally depressed folks, tears flowed freely. I might have been of a little use...not.

In the midst of ma self-inflicted depression........then things began to take shape. It wouldnt last long when I know tat wifey probably hated every nerve in me and she embarking on a 'hate' game....I aint a fan!

Talked bitness with some clients and the prospects fueled ma resolve to clean up some of the mess in ma life - at least ma bathroom! Tommorrow will a better day, today was long....reminiscing was longer, I rested in pieces.

show me the lurve

back like Moses to return the law.................took a lotta guts and efforts to return to this page. I woulda thot it was gone forreal.

A lotta thots, dreams and aspirations have gone undocumented and i feel like i deprived a generation of a chunk of knowledge. Like it is always said, a lot of water has passed over the brigde and boy! itz been a hell of an experience. Life has been fair and unfair for a respective amount of time and i couldnt have been more grateful.

Projects are been completed and new ones started, higher responsibilities, makeups and breakups and the other troubles of life. Life is now about living for the now, tommorrow remains vaguely uncertain. The fun part is that it makes me face it day with a renewed might and vigor.

A situation occured last evening that triggered an uncontrollable stream of liquid emotions. I sobbed like a bitch for quite a season and coulda killed this wifey to trying to console me. I really wanted to let it out....yeah....i let them tears flow if i cant hold 'em but.............im still the man.....and tommorrow is a better day. Show me some lurve.

Im on gear to weary ma eyes and perhaps yurs if yu are so silly to be still reading this, but like ma mom always said...."moderation babe!". I will accumulate the information to desemmilate it in a brievity. For now, adious......il be needing some love.

Like another warmup for a sequence of paper and ink

bits and bytes,

shitz and stuffz.

I commence a journey to the unknown again

with ma sanity and intuition hopefully intact

only this time knowing that im treading on stormy waters

which keeps me nonetheless in the know

fcuk what I said

Rain rain go away
come again another day
big boyz need to game
rain rain go away

Thatz the height of ma creativity today. Itz not as horrible as it sounds. I think exams is already taking itz toils on me. fcuk it! im outta here

...of shitz

I took out the trouble of posting shit on this page after such a long time but just one damn wrong button and a stubborn mouse sent it away spam!
I feel so dejected that I scribble out quite a few gud shit to post. You can feel ma pain now - Blogging which is so fun is becoming a pain in the butt.
Itz been a season of changes, a overhaul 'o me. My tit butts has experienced a drought that was somewhat evitable.
I have been the occupant of half pages of major Malaysian Dailies for the upteemth(sic) time!

cigared, did a couple of esters - hot ones, casted for an Astro commercial, met some sweet Brown Sugar from near ma sides of the straits, got ma first soccer medal, and blah, blah......
I seem to lack inspiration for this now...we'll do it laters...peace out!

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Dearth of inspiration is a symptom of a curable disease. You can catch it by being just in the right place at the wrong time.....you tend to get ideas like ma title suggests.

..by the way, that was a digression. I was trying to be artistic but, the end sadly did not justify the means....I am numbled....nay...., humbled.

Lika old Ford that keeps going and going...I am pushing against all odds.....Everything appears to be delayed but I am a firm believer in right timings...sooner than later, things are gonna take shape.

I am very apprehensive this year. Maybe itz coupled with the fact that I was born in the year of the BITCH!...Yeah......I don't need a prophet to tell me all the good things are in stock for me this year...I just pop open the pages of the newspaper and there is it ZODIAC! I had learned to beleive most of the crap they say seeing it is so true........not.

Often times when I start babbling like this, I get my perspiration ...inspiration back but it seems like itz really a draught of descent ideas....all I can think of now is........oh FCuk!

'White Christmas'

I had the best Christmas so far, I wished for mor but, it could have been better.! Father Santa must have thot me to be a gud boy cos, he showered me with a lotta goodies(some were useless though).

The only thing that I genuinely regret about rolling out December last year is the fact that I am yet to move out to a more comfortable crib as I envisaged.

College ended and is resuming again...things have not entirely changed. I had to move to a temporary workspace in office as a new colleauge had to take ma spot - talk about moving to a higher level.

My months without a phone is about to end tommorrow as a very gu samaritan is sending me a cell all the way from Sabah by air (I swore not to buy another phone in the near future).

My result again was a big surprise! I fared well but not to me xpectation. I only have two boring subjects to take this semester and the lecturers are nothing to write home about. I will not have an excuse not to 'A'!

There are a couple of issues that I have sworn to deal with this year but the latter part of last year was to say the least ma best year so far since I relocated to Asia. Godz been sooooo gud.

I had serious rapport with some very sweet shortyz today being the first day of the semester. I aint doin shit this semester, I am getting down real dirty......not literally!

I gotta get back to work...may God help those who are think they need help.....AMEN!