A good turn deserves another

The long holidays is over but thots of failure kept bugging ma mind. I prayed and wished upon the stars and had exactly what I prayed and hoped for - Hope!

Everybody are tryin' to catch up on the stories that the lost for more than one week now due to the break so, telling folks to stop making noise in class was a very unwelcome idea. In between classes I got on very high with this ping-pong game. I got so good that I played for hours and was sweating very profusely.

Like favor that comes only from above, I asked for a fresh job to do today aside the ritualistic ones and immediately the words dropped from ma mouth....I got it!

Then I went to see ma lecturer regarding ma grades which I thought I was failing, then I had the surprise of ma life, my 'good old deeds' were still living somewhere and with Godz grace I am still in the running for an 'A'!

I can't be more excited! Then Like what I learnt today from ma wisdom book, an opportunity presented itself for me to be an angel and I acted it almost as perfectly. I am a thrilled. I can ride on the wings of this happenings. Who said I can't reach for the starz?

Coming Home...

The quest for independence has un-deared me and ma beloved blog...nah! I think it is the lack of connection at ma leisure cos I now do it the old fashioned way....offline.

Itz been like ages since I posted here, I have got like gigabytes of archived data to upload though that is very unlikely. The journey to independence has been very rewarding. I am yet to achieve this status in every sense of the word but ma optimism has not been weaned in no way.

I resume with full force....pretty soon...letz hope

Hot!

I certified today as a gud day!
It is not everyday that you open up your email and have three HOT things send you a message saying you are HOT and want to meet up. I feel like I am dreaming, I swear I almost pied in ma pants. I even had 'em number but I am too afraid to buzz. Letz keep fingers crossed. I am going places baby!

...in a dayz job

If I say I am one lucky 'SOB', I might be invariabily insulting my maker. I have been on the receiving end for quite a while now that it trips me.

It has become a case of a you-get-what-you-ask-for; and it has been pretty much that. I have made very many outrageous requests maybe due to ma selfishnessor out of the abundance through which I am given to choose from. Itz been exhilarating.

I have been hit very hard on many occassions but only ma bedroom walls and ma bed witness the tears as they escape through ma eyes at the slightest chance. But, Iam better off because God has changed ma tears into wears, for this I give Him thanks.

The favor I am receiving lately has really worked on ma optimism. Iam reaching for the skies and no clouds is gonna hinder ma view. There are things that I dream andlong for that may trigger jeers from peers but that don't matter, I want to see the look on their face when I hit the stars.

As I am speaking now, somebody has offered to accomodate me in a fully furnished apartment at no cost. Where I am staying now at the moment kis a very rare miracle as well. I thank God so much. I sit back and reminisce on the prayers that I have made in the past. One of them was for free accomodation. Yeah! I asked God for it cos' he gave me the freedom to choose and ask. This has been happening like since I came into this town but I failed to notice. Every cent that I paid for a space here is offsetted! The height of it is when one son of the gods gave me a call and said to put up with him at no cost. Another came to ma college and literally paid ma tuition, making the folks at the bursary wonder at the relationship. Then I found out that ma debit in college is over 900 bucks! Getting a job is not going to be ma effort no more as God is placing people there for me, ma relationships are getting better and better. All this happening in one day! Now tell me I was handpicked for seasons of blessings! Itz overwhelming! I once again want to rub-off, the best is yet to come!

faithless

I stare at my screen,
I see prospects
I fiddle with my fingers
I see figures
I get excited,
I receive offers
I took the baits
and became faithless

..I got it.

The bus driver zoomed off when I almost got in and I cursed. I did not know that he was making me available to be an angel for some apparently drunk Chinese dude. I bet he must have been the one who threw a can of empty Soda at me once but that frizzled ma mind after the whole show.

Pacing about I here this screech then a crash! As I held this unconscious man in ma hands, all I could pray for was "God dont quench him in ma hands". After a few calls and bouts of inhaling stale alcohol, he started back. The funny part was that the man refused a ride in a car home apparently because he too cared for his half-bashed motor-bike, not even when some other dude offered to ride it to his house for him. Lifez not fair, don't assume it to be!

On the pages!

At last I am in the news baby! Itz exciting seeing the circumstances that surrounded ma almost-victory. It all started with the hunger for a high clas-top brand Cell phone. I spotted the advert and said 'trying don't hurt does it? Apparently it doesn't! Up till now I have been browsing through websites and mobile shops to find the exact value of ma victory until today when somebody congratulated me for appearing in the news. It appears that I am not the only one that is getting the publicity, Ma college, ma familty and ma country should definitely be proud of me as their ambassadors respectively.
I was stunned to learn the tag on ma baby is a whooping RM599! Wow! It is hard but seeing that brother needs dough, I ma hit the auction tables babe. This is really cool, and matter of factly, it is just the beginning of 'amazing escapades'. More stories will appear in the national dalies but here is one that I found on an online copy. Check the bruder out! http://thestar.com.my/news/story.asp?file=/2005/8/23/central/11818664&sec=central

count ya blessings....

I am getting used to waking up with this lucky feeling I guess. I had pin-pointed today to be a great day and not even the early morning rain could douse that. I saw it as a rain of blessings and hell yeah, it was!
I had a few change from yesterday so I hijacked a cab to Panasonic office. I had a call that I was one of the winners of something so I was there to see what it really was. I loaded maself with a very sumptous breakfast at home that when offered tea, I almost refused. Waiting for time was a bore so, I catch up with some games on ma dipilladidating Cell.
I will round up todayz testimonies with this list. I ain't time to play with words as I feel now.

• I had enough dough to cab to and fro a distance of more than 10km.
• I won a Panasonic SV-MP500V digital Audio Player
• I had my first press conference( apparently, I'll be appearing in the news baby!)
• My cargo arrived from home
• I got a gud deal out of some stunts that I have been pulling
• I got daily bread with 50
• A business proposal is in the offing
• Made a love connection
• Got a ride!
• hahaha...I will countinue counting ma blessings, it doesn't come any worse than this no more!

Lotz

I have been blurping about how gud I am having it lately and I tell you, I mince not words. I think the lotz are falling for me in the right places. The only bad thing that has happened lately was that I did not get grades as gud as I envisaged but that was not too bad to get a scholarship. I am so optimistic and full of faith that, nothing will really move me anymore. The much I've had is a grave of testmionies already and I won't let any tell-a-tales detter me from reaching out to the next level.....there is always a higher calling.
...and, I will see you there!

TeasDay!

Tuesday!

Letz see how to define this Day. Ma housemate says itz a bad luck day when all the mishaps in the world occurs to one person in a fraction of hours. Not bad! we learnt to expect it somehow!

I never believe him when he says itz a 'bad' Day because from ma definition, all days are good and equal, some days are just more equal than others.

A frenzy of events have occured to prompt us to label this day like, Ma buddyz gf 'acting -up' to me not doing as well as I envisaged in ma exams to shitz and stuffz.

Last Tuesday was a turning point. While I was busy cursing everybody that in one way or the other tried to screw ma precious day, one of ma niggas was getting a visa to further his studies in the UK! So, Tuesday is not a bad day afterall!

Ma turn came today, The miracle to many might not be as phenomenal as ma buddy's but, it was not something kI could over look - It was a GREATTTT Day!

It did not start out great but somehow as the day progressed, like folks would say, 'I felt lucky'. I finally got the nerves to mop ma apartment and zoomed to College. The day went on as pretty normal as usual until folks around started acting funny. I was kindda down so when some dude who owed me fifty dropped, that was miracle numero uno'. It went on from very wierd and strange gifts and compliments from folks to a phone call that I was one of the lucky winners in a Panasonic Contest that I am still trying to recall joining. Then another 'deal' was brockered and then another phone call from some top shot to word with me about some confidential stunts, and then a broken relationship mended, and then I loaded ma phone with 10 bucks and had an extra 7.15 bucks added!...... It was more like a recurring thingy and I was too afraid to sleep as I thot I would miss out on others but, as Jah would loveit, the day ended and for this I will really be eternally grateful! I think I am 'hot' now, I just hope I folks will begin to tap-in and get a feel of this dynamic escapades. I am so thrilled I wanna share!

Soft-sulk

For the past couple of months, I have been enjoying 'the goodness of the Lord in the land of the living'. It has been so memorable....like a fairy tale, something that I will live to tell. Therez been a couple of ups and downs but overly, Godz grace had abounded to me so bountifully. Things have not really gone the way I envisaged but it could have been better.

My semester results has been one of ma daily concerns. I keep on praying 'LOrd, let not me expectation be cut off' but, It almost was!

I think this is the worse result i've had since I joined college. I feel so ashamed and like crying. I could have done much much better. I think the lecturers have some explanations to make for not giving me at least 5As. Not even the generous B+s can be consoling...I consider maself to have failed as far as this semester is concerned. I see the chance of getting the merit scholarship swindle into thin air but I am nonetheless still very optimistic. I am moving to the next level of ma life as such a speed that baffles me.....'nething can happen.

I am very bad at handling dissapointment and defeat. I either sulk, babble, or mega-sleeep on it. I won't do any of those except this. People think I am crazy that with ma 'good' result I am not still satiated....I think I am....I just have stupendously tall dreams. It keeps me on track at least. I hope that my will grow up to the challenge as well.

I gotta gerrout 'o ....I got a lot of drinking to do to douse this feeling of worthfullness. Ma goals have been set and the 'Interrupt Service Routine' has been turned off. Delays don't matter as long as ma wish is ma command......hahahahaa

Proofz

Folks nowadays have various ways of proving a point to you. You just wanna be careful so you don't miss out on the original message being sent across. For some 'seemingly sane Chinese dude', He proved to me that he was an riding a 1500cc motor bike by throwing an empty can of Sprite at me while I was waiting for the Commuter bus in front of m a College. I wonder why he took so much trouble in proving a fact that was so obvious. Maybe I missed the message.

It was a good day because, I was in this mood where I would have broken his arms had he been stuck in the traffic for two minutes. I don't hate what he did because, I don't clean the streets - If I did I would demand to be paid but, I just hate it when people try so hard to prove salient-obvious points...it drives me nuttyz

Restroom peeps

I thought 'restroom' tales was only common in the 'Ladies' until today. You how when yu get in College restrooms, you just wanna mind ya 'business' and get out in the shortest possible time to avoid being swallowed by the stench and some dude walks in and out of the blues asks about your nationality? Hmm...I don't know what triggered the 'dumb' question but I was reluctant to give him 'ne answers. Maybe that was his cue to start a 'toilet' conversation but I knew better and gave him a quick answer before bolting out.

I did not take any offence but this insulting habit of folks walking up to you and out-of-the-blues ask personal questions without any tint of courtesy- as if you owe them answers is becoming incessant and I will deal with it as such. Dumb!

'Bon Foetus.

On a chiling Monday summer morning more than two decades ago, I was brought into the world by two adorable and brave folks. I keep seeing these days as the months run into years but this time, it was on a Tuesday!

There was no better place to be away from ma family and loved ones than on a road trip to the Straits of Johor, almost Singapore and Malacca. I almost was not bothered by the fact that no one remembered me, not even to call! I took the initiative and called two folks who happen to be very close to ma heart. I felt relieved after the drool.

I was dreaming of a bleak birthday because everybody that cared were either too busy to give me some time. I thought of getting some ethanol and forgetting about life's miseary for two seconds but, I had a treat! Someone voluntered to drive me around Malaysia for a total of not less than 12hours. Busy clicking away ma digicam at every exciting place, I quickly forgot about every other troubles(taking 379 photos must have been a great job, wonder how I did it!).

Nothing brought me more joy than seeing the historical state in Malaysia for the forst time on ma birthday fully sponsored by some bloke...bless 'em.

Well, the day must have been very long as I almost got bored the remaining part of the B-day but I occupuied maself flexing some muscles at the gym in ma place and cooking me a special dish while watching movies till dawn. It was not the day of ma dreams but I will not forget this B-Day in a hurry!

tit tats

I got up with every inch of muscle aching thinking of the best way to start the day and keep it gooin'. Getting ready to start the day I grab a pair of scissors and clipped away ma glory again. Therez no much worries as it doesn't take an effort to grow it again. I feel like I had a make over and can't wait to show off. I think I really look different now hope the ladies still recognise me!
Like a seconder the spirit of spending and fancy came over me but too bad! I had only a few tens to spare. Now that it is 'au rovoire, Let us pray....our father who art in heaven hallowed......

in a dayz tale

Yu know when yu live yur life as if there was less purpose to it and you try as much as you can to add the 'virtual' purpose to it, thatz exactly how I feel now.

Been trying to worry less about being bored and face this holiday squarely. I feel like every one I know deserted me so maybe itz time to forge ahead and make nu buddies,....Gosh! I love this game.

I am supposed to be putting ma lazy ass down and having fun but it seems I am working harder than when I was allowed to. I found a perfect routine, get up, do ma business, stroll down to IKEA(damn! this is the most boring part), hop on the bus and get to college. It isn't much fun but at least I am doing something that I am not paying a bomb for!...I come back every day dog-tored and head straight up to the gym in ma condo and flex some muscles. I really pity those who have this as a habit, ma muscles are aching like sht! after just two days.

Ma B-day is coming up in five days tyme and I am not ready to see it yet. All ma buddies are kindda nowhere to be found and it is gonna be amazing celebrating it without 'em.

If there is something that I am enjoying this holiday it is ma crib. I have it all to maself and do whatever I want to without disturbance from 'ny quarters.....It is so peaceful and will really miss this when "His Highness" is back from globe trotting. I gotta bounce....peace!

puzzle

I left ma crib at 9:30 in the morning to college which is about 6km approximate and 10minutes drive. I arrived college at 12:30 after spending a total of 50sens on transportation. I did not go anywhere else except follow the course of ma journey. Whatz ma story! Where did the extra time and surplus money originate from?

Ordered steps....

Good dayz come in disguise......today was!~

I never knew what was in the offing except that ma house mate was leaving for Saudi Arabia which means that I will be all alone in the house for one month except someone has the effontery to come keep a bruhder company.

The journey started with a cab, thatz the first time that we've used the public transport stystem together. Nigga did not trust me with his car so he took the keys along. My part of the journey was about to end at the Airport express train station. I could not afford the 70bucks round ticket so I had to back-out! A few hugs ang rounds and I was enroute College.

I met these two shortyz that were gonna be instrumental to me earning over a hundred bucks in a few couple of minutes. God knows I needed this as I was on the verge of breaking down. god bless 'em. As if the cheque of over a hundred bucks was not enough, Some big sister lurved me with 100bucks cash! I ma just stock up the frigde cos I will need to beat the famine thatz trying to surface...MUM!

You know those days when you think that you are "lucky" and you lust to garneer all there is to it? .."This is the day that the lord has made, I will rejoice and be glad in it".

I sense these wind that will bring me a lotta playas and hatas blowing ma direction. I dunno if it is gonna be a birthday treat but, today was a very good day!

Gone!

Like a harnattan in Malaysia, it suddendly dawned on me that more than half of the people that have made ma stay here in the country worthwhile are gone or almost gone. Some are yet to return but some don't have any plans to. I am so so so bored but don't let 'em know!
The list goes thus,

• The Oksenholts,....ma second family- gone to Norway in batches
• Pablo, some mexican dude - off to Russia
• Iris, Pabloz mum- be leaving too
• Ricardo, Ma buddy and housemate - enroute Saudi and Syria
• The Ross', an adoring family - gone to Dubai and the Philipines
• Ivy, Ma mate's Mate- gone to China
• Daenielle, some sweet girl I met in college - off to California
• the list goes on and on but, I gotta stop here before the tears start drooling.

I feel like I am totally alone now...maybe these guyz made me not miss ma family. I am really missing them now. I gotta occupy ma self with something serious or I might really breakdown. Maybe a terminal gurlfriend, maybe no.....

tots 4 2day!

...what would it take to make me hate you?........Me.