update thursday

The holiday seasons are here again....not a very gud to emerge but itz better now than never. There are lots of stuff to deal with and there appears to be insufficient time to weather it. Got some change for some deal and a few more are hangin here and there, itz kindda frustrating when ma bills are escalating arithmetically. Wifey is moving into our crib and things are taking shape again...at least I got honey to smile at a bruda after two long days! Gotta get down to the drawing board and figure out a way to make this holiday worthwhile.

My weeks end on thursdays now so I start a looong weekend today. Halleluyah!

Fasting by default every other day, I wish I was home to say a few prayers too. The Good LOrd has been faithful, the prayers of blessings on ma head are still potent, I dont know how much effort it would take to curse.

My mind is clouded witha lotta stuffs, i need to unclog it to be able to take in the heat of this semester. The Lord is on ma side and I am not afraid or dismayed....tommorrow is a bestest day!

...tat monday

Monday was blue......ok....forget it, I was in the mood to rhyme my story but that wont be necessary at the moment. I certified it was a bad day intoto....despite the many attempts to salvage it.

Ma intuition is crisp, I can sense trouble like a few hundred metres away. The fun part is that folks dont yield and they suffer afterwards, dragging me along in their mud as well. Me not being convincing enough to lead them to yielding becomes my downside - like a disability.

First mission was to get wifey a letter to enable her fix some visa problems which was caused by misinformation. Salvaged the first part and was settling into another phase of breakthrough when the break occured in a somewhat larger magnitude. A more than 10km maiden drive on the 'other' side of the road was greatly tainted. Suffice it to mention that I felt like crashing the damn car on a 120km/hr frenzy a number of times due to misunderstandings, frustrations, and inappreciation. I immediately seeked counselling on return.

Maybe itz the trend. I ran into a number of equally depressed folks, tears flowed freely. I might have been of a little use...not.

In the midst of ma self-inflicted depression........then things began to take shape. It wouldnt last long when I know tat wifey probably hated every nerve in me and she embarking on a 'hate' game....I aint a fan!

Talked bitness with some clients and the prospects fueled ma resolve to clean up some of the mess in ma life - at least ma bathroom! Tommorrow will a better day, today was long....reminiscing was longer, I rested in pieces.

show me the lurve

back like Moses to return the law.................took a lotta guts and efforts to return to this page. I woulda thot it was gone forreal.

A lotta thots, dreams and aspirations have gone undocumented and i feel like i deprived a generation of a chunk of knowledge. Like it is always said, a lot of water has passed over the brigde and boy! itz been a hell of an experience. Life has been fair and unfair for a respective amount of time and i couldnt have been more grateful.

Projects are been completed and new ones started, higher responsibilities, makeups and breakups and the other troubles of life. Life is now about living for the now, tommorrow remains vaguely uncertain. The fun part is that it makes me face it day with a renewed might and vigor.

A situation occured last evening that triggered an uncontrollable stream of liquid emotions. I sobbed like a bitch for quite a season and coulda killed this wifey to trying to console me. I really wanted to let it out....yeah....i let them tears flow if i cant hold 'em but.............im still the man.....and tommorrow is a better day. Show me some lurve.

Im on gear to weary ma eyes and perhaps yurs if yu are so silly to be still reading this, but like ma mom always said...."moderation babe!". I will accumulate the information to desemmilate it in a brievity. For now, adious......il be needing some love.

Like another warmup for a sequence of paper and ink

bits and bytes,

shitz and stuffz.

I commence a journey to the unknown again

with ma sanity and intuition hopefully intact

only this time knowing that im treading on stormy waters

which keeps me nonetheless in the know

fcuk what I said

Rain rain go away
come again another day
big boyz need to game
rain rain go away

Thatz the height of ma creativity today. Itz not as horrible as it sounds. I think exams is already taking itz toils on me. fcuk it! im outta here

...of shitz

I took out the trouble of posting shit on this page after such a long time but just one damn wrong button and a stubborn mouse sent it away spam!
I feel so dejected that I scribble out quite a few gud shit to post. You can feel ma pain now - Blogging which is so fun is becoming a pain in the butt.
Itz been a season of changes, a overhaul 'o me. My tit butts has experienced a drought that was somewhat evitable.
I have been the occupant of half pages of major Malaysian Dailies for the upteemth(sic) time!

cigared, did a couple of esters - hot ones, casted for an Astro commercial, met some sweet Brown Sugar from near ma sides of the straits, got ma first soccer medal, and blah, blah......
I seem to lack inspiration for this now...we'll do it laters...peace out!

jhklkjpdf!!@##

Dearth of inspiration is a symptom of a curable disease. You can catch it by being just in the right place at the wrong time.....you tend to get ideas like ma title suggests.

..by the way, that was a digression. I was trying to be artistic but, the end sadly did not justify the means....I am numbled....nay...., humbled.

Lika old Ford that keeps going and going...I am pushing against all odds.....Everything appears to be delayed but I am a firm believer in right timings...sooner than later, things are gonna take shape.

I am very apprehensive this year. Maybe itz coupled with the fact that I was born in the year of the BITCH!...Yeah......I don't need a prophet to tell me all the good things are in stock for me this year...I just pop open the pages of the newspaper and there is it ZODIAC! I had learned to beleive most of the crap they say seeing it is so true........not.

Often times when I start babbling like this, I get my perspiration ...inspiration back but it seems like itz really a draught of descent ideas....all I can think of now is........oh FCuk!

'White Christmas'

I had the best Christmas so far, I wished for mor but, it could have been better.! Father Santa must have thot me to be a gud boy cos, he showered me with a lotta goodies(some were useless though).

The only thing that I genuinely regret about rolling out December last year is the fact that I am yet to move out to a more comfortable crib as I envisaged.

College ended and is resuming again...things have not entirely changed. I had to move to a temporary workspace in office as a new colleauge had to take ma spot - talk about moving to a higher level.

My months without a phone is about to end tommorrow as a very gu samaritan is sending me a cell all the way from Sabah by air (I swore not to buy another phone in the near future).

My result again was a big surprise! I fared well but not to me xpectation. I only have two boring subjects to take this semester and the lecturers are nothing to write home about. I will not have an excuse not to 'A'!

There are a couple of issues that I have sworn to deal with this year but the latter part of last year was to say the least ma best year so far since I relocated to Asia. Godz been sooooo gud.

I had serious rapport with some very sweet shortyz today being the first day of the semester. I aint doin shit this semester, I am getting down real dirty......not literally!

I gotta get back to work...may God help those who are think they need help.....AMEN!

A good turn deserves another

The long holidays is over but thots of failure kept bugging ma mind. I prayed and wished upon the stars and had exactly what I prayed and hoped for - Hope!

Everybody are tryin' to catch up on the stories that the lost for more than one week now due to the break so, telling folks to stop making noise in class was a very unwelcome idea. In between classes I got on very high with this ping-pong game. I got so good that I played for hours and was sweating very profusely.

Like favor that comes only from above, I asked for a fresh job to do today aside the ritualistic ones and immediately the words dropped from ma mouth....I got it!

Then I went to see ma lecturer regarding ma grades which I thought I was failing, then I had the surprise of ma life, my 'good old deeds' were still living somewhere and with Godz grace I am still in the running for an 'A'!

I can't be more excited! Then Like what I learnt today from ma wisdom book, an opportunity presented itself for me to be an angel and I acted it almost as perfectly. I am a thrilled. I can ride on the wings of this happenings. Who said I can't reach for the starz?

Coming Home...

The quest for independence has un-deared me and ma beloved blog...nah! I think it is the lack of connection at ma leisure cos I now do it the old fashioned way....offline.

Itz been like ages since I posted here, I have got like gigabytes of archived data to upload though that is very unlikely. The journey to independence has been very rewarding. I am yet to achieve this status in every sense of the word but ma optimism has not been weaned in no way.

I resume with full force....pretty soon...letz hope

Hot!

I certified today as a gud day!
It is not everyday that you open up your email and have three HOT things send you a message saying you are HOT and want to meet up. I feel like I am dreaming, I swear I almost pied in ma pants. I even had 'em number but I am too afraid to buzz. Letz keep fingers crossed. I am going places baby!

...in a dayz job

If I say I am one lucky 'SOB', I might be invariabily insulting my maker. I have been on the receiving end for quite a while now that it trips me.

It has become a case of a you-get-what-you-ask-for; and it has been pretty much that. I have made very many outrageous requests maybe due to ma selfishnessor out of the abundance through which I am given to choose from. Itz been exhilarating.

I have been hit very hard on many occassions but only ma bedroom walls and ma bed witness the tears as they escape through ma eyes at the slightest chance. But, Iam better off because God has changed ma tears into wears, for this I give Him thanks.

The favor I am receiving lately has really worked on ma optimism. Iam reaching for the skies and no clouds is gonna hinder ma view. There are things that I dream andlong for that may trigger jeers from peers but that don't matter, I want to see the look on their face when I hit the stars.

As I am speaking now, somebody has offered to accomodate me in a fully furnished apartment at no cost. Where I am staying now at the moment kis a very rare miracle as well. I thank God so much. I sit back and reminisce on the prayers that I have made in the past. One of them was for free accomodation. Yeah! I asked God for it cos' he gave me the freedom to choose and ask. This has been happening like since I came into this town but I failed to notice. Every cent that I paid for a space here is offsetted! The height of it is when one son of the gods gave me a call and said to put up with him at no cost. Another came to ma college and literally paid ma tuition, making the folks at the bursary wonder at the relationship. Then I found out that ma debit in college is over 900 bucks! Getting a job is not going to be ma effort no more as God is placing people there for me, ma relationships are getting better and better. All this happening in one day! Now tell me I was handpicked for seasons of blessings! Itz overwhelming! I once again want to rub-off, the best is yet to come!

faithless

I stare at my screen,
I see prospects
I fiddle with my fingers
I see figures
I get excited,
I receive offers
I took the baits
and became faithless

..I got it.

The bus driver zoomed off when I almost got in and I cursed. I did not know that he was making me available to be an angel for some apparently drunk Chinese dude. I bet he must have been the one who threw a can of empty Soda at me once but that frizzled ma mind after the whole show.

Pacing about I here this screech then a crash! As I held this unconscious man in ma hands, all I could pray for was "God dont quench him in ma hands". After a few calls and bouts of inhaling stale alcohol, he started back. The funny part was that the man refused a ride in a car home apparently because he too cared for his half-bashed motor-bike, not even when some other dude offered to ride it to his house for him. Lifez not fair, don't assume it to be!

On the pages!

At last I am in the news baby! Itz exciting seeing the circumstances that surrounded ma almost-victory. It all started with the hunger for a high clas-top brand Cell phone. I spotted the advert and said 'trying don't hurt does it? Apparently it doesn't! Up till now I have been browsing through websites and mobile shops to find the exact value of ma victory until today when somebody congratulated me for appearing in the news. It appears that I am not the only one that is getting the publicity, Ma college, ma familty and ma country should definitely be proud of me as their ambassadors respectively.
I was stunned to learn the tag on ma baby is a whooping RM599! Wow! It is hard but seeing that brother needs dough, I ma hit the auction tables babe. This is really cool, and matter of factly, it is just the beginning of 'amazing escapades'. More stories will appear in the national dalies but here is one that I found on an online copy. Check the bruder out! http://thestar.com.my/news/story.asp?file=/2005/8/23/central/11818664&sec=central

count ya blessings....

I am getting used to waking up with this lucky feeling I guess. I had pin-pointed today to be a great day and not even the early morning rain could douse that. I saw it as a rain of blessings and hell yeah, it was!
I had a few change from yesterday so I hijacked a cab to Panasonic office. I had a call that I was one of the winners of something so I was there to see what it really was. I loaded maself with a very sumptous breakfast at home that when offered tea, I almost refused. Waiting for time was a bore so, I catch up with some games on ma dipilladidating Cell.
I will round up todayz testimonies with this list. I ain't time to play with words as I feel now.

• I had enough dough to cab to and fro a distance of more than 10km.
• I won a Panasonic SV-MP500V digital Audio Player
• I had my first press conference( apparently, I'll be appearing in the news baby!)
• My cargo arrived from home
• I got a gud deal out of some stunts that I have been pulling
• I got daily bread with 50
• A business proposal is in the offing
• Made a love connection
• Got a ride!
• hahaha...I will countinue counting ma blessings, it doesn't come any worse than this no more!

Lotz

I have been blurping about how gud I am having it lately and I tell you, I mince not words. I think the lotz are falling for me in the right places. The only bad thing that has happened lately was that I did not get grades as gud as I envisaged but that was not too bad to get a scholarship. I am so optimistic and full of faith that, nothing will really move me anymore. The much I've had is a grave of testmionies already and I won't let any tell-a-tales detter me from reaching out to the next level.....there is always a higher calling.
...and, I will see you there!

TeasDay!

Tuesday!

Letz see how to define this Day. Ma housemate says itz a bad luck day when all the mishaps in the world occurs to one person in a fraction of hours. Not bad! we learnt to expect it somehow!

I never believe him when he says itz a 'bad' Day because from ma definition, all days are good and equal, some days are just more equal than others.

A frenzy of events have occured to prompt us to label this day like, Ma buddyz gf 'acting -up' to me not doing as well as I envisaged in ma exams to shitz and stuffz.

Last Tuesday was a turning point. While I was busy cursing everybody that in one way or the other tried to screw ma precious day, one of ma niggas was getting a visa to further his studies in the UK! So, Tuesday is not a bad day afterall!

Ma turn came today, The miracle to many might not be as phenomenal as ma buddy's but, it was not something kI could over look - It was a GREATTTT Day!

It did not start out great but somehow as the day progressed, like folks would say, 'I felt lucky'. I finally got the nerves to mop ma apartment and zoomed to College. The day went on as pretty normal as usual until folks around started acting funny. I was kindda down so when some dude who owed me fifty dropped, that was miracle numero uno'. It went on from very wierd and strange gifts and compliments from folks to a phone call that I was one of the lucky winners in a Panasonic Contest that I am still trying to recall joining. Then another 'deal' was brockered and then another phone call from some top shot to word with me about some confidential stunts, and then a broken relationship mended, and then I loaded ma phone with 10 bucks and had an extra 7.15 bucks added!...... It was more like a recurring thingy and I was too afraid to sleep as I thot I would miss out on others but, as Jah would loveit, the day ended and for this I will really be eternally grateful! I think I am 'hot' now, I just hope I folks will begin to tap-in and get a feel of this dynamic escapades. I am so thrilled I wanna share!

Soft-sulk

For the past couple of months, I have been enjoying 'the goodness of the Lord in the land of the living'. It has been so memorable....like a fairy tale, something that I will live to tell. Therez been a couple of ups and downs but overly, Godz grace had abounded to me so bountifully. Things have not really gone the way I envisaged but it could have been better.

My semester results has been one of ma daily concerns. I keep on praying 'LOrd, let not me expectation be cut off' but, It almost was!

I think this is the worse result i've had since I joined college. I feel so ashamed and like crying. I could have done much much better. I think the lecturers have some explanations to make for not giving me at least 5As. Not even the generous B+s can be consoling...I consider maself to have failed as far as this semester is concerned. I see the chance of getting the merit scholarship swindle into thin air but I am nonetheless still very optimistic. I am moving to the next level of ma life as such a speed that baffles me.....'nething can happen.

I am very bad at handling dissapointment and defeat. I either sulk, babble, or mega-sleeep on it. I won't do any of those except this. People think I am crazy that with ma 'good' result I am not still satiated....I think I am....I just have stupendously tall dreams. It keeps me on track at least. I hope that my will grow up to the challenge as well.

I gotta gerrout 'o ....I got a lot of drinking to do to douse this feeling of worthfullness. Ma goals have been set and the 'Interrupt Service Routine' has been turned off. Delays don't matter as long as ma wish is ma command......hahahahaa

Proofz

Folks nowadays have various ways of proving a point to you. You just wanna be careful so you don't miss out on the original message being sent across. For some 'seemingly sane Chinese dude', He proved to me that he was an riding a 1500cc motor bike by throwing an empty can of Sprite at me while I was waiting for the Commuter bus in front of m a College. I wonder why he took so much trouble in proving a fact that was so obvious. Maybe I missed the message.

It was a good day because, I was in this mood where I would have broken his arms had he been stuck in the traffic for two minutes. I don't hate what he did because, I don't clean the streets - If I did I would demand to be paid but, I just hate it when people try so hard to prove salient-obvious points...it drives me nuttyz

Restroom peeps

I thought 'restroom' tales was only common in the 'Ladies' until today. You how when yu get in College restrooms, you just wanna mind ya 'business' and get out in the shortest possible time to avoid being swallowed by the stench and some dude walks in and out of the blues asks about your nationality? Hmm...I don't know what triggered the 'dumb' question but I was reluctant to give him 'ne answers. Maybe that was his cue to start a 'toilet' conversation but I knew better and gave him a quick answer before bolting out.

I did not take any offence but this insulting habit of folks walking up to you and out-of-the-blues ask personal questions without any tint of courtesy- as if you owe them answers is becoming incessant and I will deal with it as such. Dumb!